day five hundred and fifty one

‘just give it a couple of months’ they said. 

and so I did. 

i gave it a couple of months.

i gave it a couple of cries.

i gave it a couple of countries.

i gave it a couple of tries.

a couple of therapy sessions.

a couple of new books. 

a couple of hard lessons. 

a couple of different looks.

a couple of Vipassanas. 

a couple of screams.

a couple of mantras.

a couple of dreams. 

a couple of random hobbies. 

a couple of trainings to let go.

a couple of yoga practices.

a couple of ways to grow.

a couple of everything,

so that I can finally forgive,

a couple of anything,

to retrieve the love I used to give.

‘just give it a few more months’ they still say to me.

and so now its round five hundred and fifty two -

because theres nothing else I can do,

except give time to heal -

from what loving you has put me through.