non-solo travel

You held my hand as I moved 

across one land to another, 

shedding my skin,

to learn how to leave

without abandoning myself.

beginning again- 

again & again & again. 

every moment, 

every breathe,

every step - 

again i go

 into the great unknown. 

You rock me gently in Your arms,

reminding me that im always safe,

by sending your angels to meet me along the way. 

you send me miracles, you send me signs,

you send me intuitive knowings of whats divine. 

you guide me to surrender,

in the trance of flowing grace,

to allow me to open and create some space. 

when I let go, 

You pour in Your love - 

clearing the dust of my shadows

with Your purest warm light. 

the moment i allow myself to let go,

You gift me a piece of gold,

which settles deep and unnoticed,

in the center of my heart. 

i know its not to own,

or to keep, 

its given to me just 

to feel.

I watch it

without attaching or grasping.

i know it will shift,

evolve,

transform -

a passing form.

Impermanent- 

the ultimate truth. 

in the experiencing of Your miracles,

You gave me no answers,

only understanding:

 form changes and dissolves,

just as i am remade 

day after day,

place after place,

moment after moment,

space after space. 

but something always remains.

not a thing, 

not a shape,

not a name. 

in presence,

where roots began to grow,

and it give me a constant place to hold. 

here,

 I do not need to leave or arrive to.

here, 

i am.